SAD~

Pmr over~.. should b relax.. ar... i thnk cant..
form 4 waiting me.. my mum tell me need study during holidays.. i noe it.. but.. interested by other things. haiz..

sad? happy? no need say la.. sure gt both~ haiz.. i fell dizzy, i hate everything~
ar..

Another Blog~

www.truelifeisagame.blogspot.com

PMR 4 week more..

2 days ago.. i was hurt so much.. i cry... mum birthday that dayx.. she was happy when i gier a gift before i go school... but at night.. she scold me.. why u didnt cook for me? i just nothings to say.. as i know.. pmr is near now.. i wan study hard.. i dun wan do housework to wasting my time..

i was sad.. why? wmy bro can stdy hard before exam.. mum giv my bro when he PMR freely with no need do anythings housework... i wan also.. are the world change?.. i gt stdy.. everyday mon to friday almost 2 oclock sleep.. why? u say u not like stdy hard.. so do houseworks.. u know u hurt me.. hurt ar.. pain e... when u scold.. i almost cry... i already mentioned i will didnt do anyhousework before pmr.. u say ok.. y u now didnt remember.. sure u didnt remember.. u care my bro so much.. wat tats wat tis.. u hekp him.. when u do somethings to my bro.. u know i am upsad when i heard.. u didnt care me?.. or is my self problem?

pra 1.. 2a3b3c.. bad la.. hai... stdy hard more.. but someone always hurt me when i study.. make me no moods.. so.. i very very very hope to go a house... nobody ther.. only me... i stdy at ther.. at home like a little bit devils.. yesterday mum tell me.. u cant blame me of ur pmr reslult.. u cant blame with someone expressions.. i say u know u did on me.. u know?.. bt i will blame these to u.. u self know jiu ok le..

haiz.. everythind think it.. sad la.. just like belo story..

送给你一个故事，希望它能为你带来好运。
从前, 有一个脾气很坏的男孩，他的爸爸给了他一袋钉子，告诉他每次发脾气或者跟人吵架的时候就在院子的篱笆上钉一根。第一天，男孩钉了37 根钉子。后面的几天他学会了控制自己的脾气，每天钉的钉子也逐渐减少了。他发现，控制自己的脾气，实际上比钉钉子要容易的多。终于有一天，他一根钉子都没有钉，他高兴地把这件事告诉了爸爸。爸爸说：从今以后，如果你一天都没有发脾气，就可以在这天拔掉一根钉子。日子一天一天过去，最后，钉子全被拔光了。爸爸带他来到篱笆边上，对他说：儿子，你做得很好 , 可是看看篱笆上的钉子洞，这些洞永远也不可能恢复了。就象你和一个人吵架，说了些难听的话，你就在他心里留下了一个伤口，像这个钉子洞一样。插一把刀子在一个人的身体里，再拔出来，伤口就难以愈合了。无论你怎么道歉，伤口总是在那儿。要知道，身体上的伤口和心灵上的伤口一样都难以恢复。

hope u know it.. haiz.. bye..

Lame

ya... i feel my life is lame.. u all dun know my felling... all people say me gila... may b u r correct.. cox i very scare... scare to face 2moro.. u know my feeling... life cant stand if 2moro didnt hope...

i know... i know everthing wat ru wan tell me... everything i know... but... but... i still sad... althought wat u say... i feel happy... but in my deep heart u didnt understand.. u dun know my feelings... u wan care me is ok but u care method is wrg.. i dun wan these caring... i no need.. i am very quiet boy.. no body my mind wat i m thinking... u know?

ar... pmr coming soon... more scared pmr... altought pmr not a hard things.. i know try my best jiu ok le.. but u dun know my feeling.. wat u say i till scare... tat why many people say me gila.. n no body wan b friend with me.. haiz... i wan big shout at sea... as loud as posible..

see.. sure u say me crazy... crazy man..
wat i want i cant get.. live for wat... now i live for god only... may b u say corect.. no friend no love no caring no.. no.. ar........ i hate la.... cry everyday in my heart..


dun talk liao.. i go sleep...

AcT allY~ 2d@y is LaSt bLoGGiNg~

one year two year is over ed... we dun know our life when over ed..
my life... u really want know my life?

today i tell u...

along all the blog~ 80% is true..
why i write this blog?
first at al.. i c my brother gt write blog.. then later see church mate also gt write.. wah, i think it is nice to write about myself..

purpose write blog is..
FIND FRIENDS
friend is need in this world.. without meaningless..
i am study hard then others... busy study like chu hao.. .. but he lucky.. why i say like tat? cox he gt friends.. me, even a friend also didn't have..

in school.. in my class, gt 18 boys.. 4 boys in front the teacher.. others back of the class.. actually i wan to join them.. but, i think it will affect my study.. so i sit front.. in class.. around 6 hours school time.. only 1 min talk boys.. others no talking.. when recess, i wan talk to them.. i cant get into it..they all talk games... most hated... so bo friend..

about my family.. my family ok a.. no so bad compare others.. i cry of them because i haven get their trusty however i trying do the best to show them... i also cant scold them.. cox.. so far i also wrg.. is me make them dun trust on me.. i know to get bek our trust is hard.. long.. sad..

study.. study... ya it is important.. but u need relax.. like me.. scare failed so study till late.. result also not good.. pressure bcm more.. mum n dad want me get 8as in pmr.. they say tat kor can get 5as i cant get.. mean i stupid than him.. when i heard, omg tis also wan compare? cox my parent high on me.. in my report card.. any red numbers also dun hav.. from tadika to secondary school.. i always in a class.. average always 70% abv.. not like others sibling.. .. i know.. it is easy when we hardworking.. but for me, me pressure la.. so i always talk to them.. dun always say.. n my target is 6as.. to reduce pressure.. but my parent mengejek me.. i dun kind..

my religion.. christian.. i know every things.. kill of is a sin.. so i didn't do it.. but i only think some times.. in church.. i do lot for god.. i know d.. god luv me..

mayb u think i need kaunseling.. i dont think so.. cox i can kaunseling my self.. my ambition is bcom psychology.. heard tat my mum not alowed.. cox me is her harapan.. she hope me b acountant.. i think.. is ok.. everyjob i like..

mayb i didnt write blog anymore.. cox u all my feeling now
attitude..lot.. u sure know.. so i dint write more.. may b i change blog.. when i change i will tell.. not the sadnessstoty anymore.. mayb is my life ..

i hope la.. churchmate can auto talk with me.. cox i am 内向 people.. tell u, my friend 2.. one my class.. one is same name with me..
parent.. i hope u can stop talking about pmr.. let me self choing k?.. n i wan go library.. sun stop it k? i not for loving.. cox i hate loving..


so ho know me.. care me pls.. i also care u gud.. so tata.. see u all after pmr..
wah 2 am d.. i go sleep lo.. ><



just from... finder friends.. MR HONG

50 days PmR come~ ><

ar...
during no write blog.. almost everyday sad.. study... kena marah... a lot la...
now mum start blame me steal her money..
haiz...
cry a lot..
but i tahan...patient...
but sometimes my airmata.. sendiri keluar...
i wan so d..
my pra 1 result.. especiallybm...
go.. help me alwys...

around tis day, i find pastor to solve my prob.. sure my kor know tis.. cox he sure see my blog..
althoungh i dun wan die.. but i like to think how to kill self...
ar.......
so suffer....
my friend good at me... but last... even a msg dun reply..
so sad...
everyday think die died die... will bcome Gila la...
ARRRRRR...
i wan Shout as much as i can....
i oledi suffer enuf...

why u dun suffer i suffer?
why u gt good friend?
why u everyday can smile?
why u can tat u can tis...

why me cant?
why i suffer tis..?
why i dun hav tat i possible everybody hav?
why? why? WhY?

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haiz...

today i dun noe my feeling.. hard to say... actually i dun wan blogging again.. cox my kor n my csin who am i.. bt.. my feeling n my heart always 'broken'.. how to say ne?

mum giv us freedom to train us to become not very so attact on com so much... n my kor pm me with mesenger say that mum is gila n say tis no need train.. tis prob not hurt but me bt prob is.. mum always see me play games n me often not at home, me hav to go tuition, kk, scroll tambahan, chucrh... how can hav many time to play.. n dad say me everdyan morning i will on pc n till night.. i didnt do it.. n felix play more than me... n say felix can control.. me cant..

i noe tis case cant blame everyone.. cox i now dad n mum love me.. they wan me study more than play.. tis i noe.. everys\day sleep i gt thnk how to improve my subject.. although tis time exam gt improve, but my target not achive.. haiz..

maybe the freedom make me so sad, if not freedom, everything can settle,,, i wan study.. can but a force tat cant escape is evil.. eveil shouting me always say a while n awhile.. make me so furious.. haiz..

i hope my attidude can chnge... if not everytng cant chnge.. i noe tis hmwrk is hard.. hope god let me make it done welly..

ok la nthng to say... hope a fair will come out one day..

to: kor
kor, +u+u.. i see u gt change.. hope u will study well... n forgive me that i always say lie to u.. hope u will understand.. n me also 4give u that u done one me.. althougt tat thing make me very sad.. is ok.. i forgive u d.. i only hope tat we more connection..

to: cousin
cousin.. i noe u knw my feeling.. tq.. dun so worry... my think oledi opened..
tq for worry me.. hope can see u soon.. haha..

conclusion
i learn tat i must live n always happy.. study harder than others.. haiz.. so precious time is gone... my teen life hampir used up... so i need to take care it.. haha... i found that me bcome big person.. think more... shhhh.. dun tell my mum ar.. cox she thnk me still young... like my bro... ><..

so i will less on9 from now.. may b a month one times.. +u+u.. see u on someday...
remeber bless me o... PMR coming soon...